I'm back and posting stuff some more. still no name for my new project, for now it's code name is Awaken, and I kinda wanna play with it but meh. I hope to be posting a page or 2 a week and my new poems took some time too. Sorry I haven't been posting the last few months, I kinda got pissed and stopped writing. anyhow, link me one or two of your new works so i can catch up please.I'm posting the first poem tomorrow after my class. Oh, yeah, I'm in university now yada yada, I was in a state of Delierum from mid April on. and kinda just snapped back to reality. talk with you all again soon.

all that joy and happiness I reported before is gone. She dumped me for her X. Nothing else to report short of the great deal of vodka and beer I consumed last night. killing the feelings I had for her seemed pretty easy considering I had already started to detach myself from her in preparation for September. Fact is I was numb up until I started drinking, I went through like tons of shit that i don't even remotely recall. Drinking doesn't make me feel better, it just makes it so I can have a good time. If anyone thinks this is a bad habit, your right.

My usual hatred of life and all things in it have been replaced by irregular joy and happiness. Everything is how I want it. I finished high School, WoW is going great, and my home is fixed. There is one last thing that makes this summer perfect. One thing I have never had before, a girlfriend. It happened so fast, I can't believe how lucky I am to have her. I have never been this close to someone or cared for them this much. Which makes the future so difficult. I leave September 1 for Trent, and I wont be back for a while. She is coming out of a difficult long distance relationship, and I just plain don't believe in them. I don't know really what to do. For years that date has been hope for me, given me strength and courage to soldier on, now it scares the shit out of me because I wont be with her...... I will have to soldier on though. I am young enough to feel this way, but to wise to let it stop me. Damn wisdom and it's power.

for the past two months I haven't been very active. Aside from major stuff going down in my life including me being ever so confused about a girl, I have been playing way too much WoW. I got my black war mount, which roughly translate to sexy black tiger I get to ride around on in game. At any rate, I cleared out my journals that are over a month old, read the rest (didn't have much time so only commented on 1.) that was a few days ago. I took this morning and went through at least 1 thing from everyone. I deleted everything else off my list cuz I had no time to go through 116 deviations this early in the morning. If there is anything you think I'd like that I didn't comment on, please send me the link and I will be more then happy to look at it.

I picked my university today... and changed my name. I am going to Trent, and when I get there I will no longer go by Joe. I want to try using my other possible name. Seph. (Joseph = Jo/Seph) it has always been something i toyed with in my head. other than that the good news is Ashur (my good computer) and my slave computer are both working again. nce the slave has it's burning software installed I will be all set. hope you all are well, ttyl.